What I have noticed over the years is that very often we don’t know that the Holy Ghost has been in our midst until after He has left the scene. For example, this week a thought came into my head that I assumed was my own. The thought was, “how is it that you spiritually survive when you have lost so much that you depended on?” Immediately, I was reminded of the fact that for at least 25 years, my spiritual life was dependent upon people, places and things. By things, I mean “works” and “practices.”
Among the people were those I pastored and the many ministers and
members that I fellowshipped with, as well as two different husbands
who I was compelled to divorce as well as family, friends and associates
that I had to “cut loose”.
For me there was only one place: the church. I was in church constantly as a pastor, a member and a visitor. At times, I was in church as many as 6 days a week, hours at a time.
Furthermore, I frequently visited other churches, several times a month. I also preached and taught in prison for almost 10 years. Among the things or “works” that I no longer do is my first love,— developing sermons and preaching. I practiced healing, deliverance ministry, weeping and wailing in intercession, aka,travailing, and speaking in tongues. I also moved in the “slain in the spirit” ministry, where people fell to the floor at the touch of my hand or at times, when I simply waved my hand, some fell slain. I saw into the future regularly,experiencing supernatural experiences that I believed at the time were manifestations of each of the 9 gifts of the Holy Ghost.
I lost it ALL!
At the beginning of the century, with 9/11/01 as my target date of change, I
had no idea that when I prayed “Lord, if there is any darkness around me,
please expose it,” that practically EVERYTHING–people, places and
things–would be exposed as filled with darkness and deception.
So when the thought came into my mind, “Pam,how do you live and survive today without all of that?” I had not yet come up with an answer, until my first client of the day asked me the very same question. So when she asked the very question that had
just hit my own thoughts, I immediately realized that the Holy Ghost was using her to speak to me. Interestingly enough, as I counsel others, the Holy Ghost frequently uses contents of the session to have a ONE on one session with me!
I can’t recall in detail how I answered the question for it took practically the entire session to do so. However, what I recall is what the client said to me. She sounded, awed, or speechless when she replied, “Wow. Pam,you are really living for Christ because you have given up ALL for His sake.”
I was shocked by her words because since my losses are predominately
religious in nature, I had not looked at them from that particular
perspective. The conclusion that I had come to is that “every
religious person or thing could be and was removed from me but I
held on to ONE thing that could not be removed.
That ONE thing is my faith and assurance that I am
saved, born again, and when all is said and done, my salvation is
“enough.” Jesus Christ of Nazareth is enough for me. I
have ceased from my own works and I rest in the Lord.
However, how does one arrive at such a place within his or her spiritual walk?
It is not easy–at first. As the writer of Hebrews declares,
“one must LABOR or struggle to enter into the
Lord’s rest” (Hebrews: 4) The familiar expression:
no pain, no gain does not really ring true in the spirit.. The remarkable
thing is that like giving birth in the natural, once the labor and
struggle of delivery has been achieved, you simply can’t remember the pain.For
example, I do not recall the pain of walking away from not
one husband, but two. Once I realized that they were both sent
from the devil to destroy me and hinder my walk in the spirit with the Lord,
the pain was minimized, to say the least!
Once God revealed to me that sermonizing was not from Him but that
it is merely a man-made art, I can no longer recall the pain of not
doing something that I had grown to love. Once one has actually ENTERED
the Lord’s rest, than obedience is in no way painful. Loss is not painful
either. You simply “move on” and live once you have “entered
in.”.That is why I didn’t use the title, no PAIN no gain. I simply
cannot recall the pain of losing so much. However,with each loss, I continue to
experience the gain of a new revelation. Fruit simply grows without much effort. I have come to learn that salvation is truly my pearl of great price. The pain of selling all to guard and protect my born again spirit has been my great gain.
False conversions. I call them “counterfeit births.” I suspect that false conversions are the major sign of the great falling away. Clearly, it is rather obvious, even to the least spiritual among us in the world and in the religious world that there is certainly something wrong when there exists such a state of utter religious confusion and doctrinal mumbo jumbo. An understanding of today’s dilemma was prophesied by the Apostle Paul in his revelation to Timothy when Paul wrote that in the last days, some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits and doctrines of devils.
Evidently, the primary demonic strategy is deception. Deception is the first stage of the falling away process. One of the goals of this blog is to un-complicate things. So I personally took the first step of self-examination. Once I discovered that there is a fake Jesus, the first thing that I did was to confront the issue of my own salvation, head on. Since it was so supernatural in nature, after more than two decades, I asked myself “Pam, are you REALLY saved? I did what Paul recommended to the Corinthians as recorded in II Cor. 13:5: I examined myself to see if I be in the faith. I proved my self. I examined myself to see if Jesus Christ be IN me.
Now to be IN me is not a physical or a soulical thing. Jesus is not IN my heart because my heart is a part of my soul. No, by the power of the Holy Ghost, He is in my spirit. I examined myself by John 15, to see if there is any fruit in my life. What is fruit? I will address that in yet another post. However, there were 3 things I looked for. Did I experience godly sorrow that worked repentance in me. Did I see my own sinful nature? Was I drawn to the cross or led to the Lord’s sacrifice by the Holy Ghost. Did I understand the resurrection the day I was saved. I realized that I have to first understand it in order to believe that a dead man lives in a physical body, who is now seated at the right hand of God.
I knew BEFORE I even examined my salvation that I was born again. However, I examined it ANYWAY.
So what do you do about a false conversion. You start with YOU. More in part 2.
| WAS YOUR CONVERSION REALLY OF YOUR OWN DOING? Was the Holy Ghost involved in leading you to the cross and to repentance? Did the Holy Ghost plant faith into your spirit to believe that Jesus is alive in His physical body? Did you feel cleansed, forgiven and assured? Or did YOU make the choice, repeat “I accept Jesus into my heart,” and then joined a church?The church age that we live in is the church at Laodicea. Everyone has been contaminated by false and mixed doctrine and practices for at least 100 years or more. Everyone has been deceived, across the board. That includes me, that includes YOU!
Imagine if you would, the horrific shock of faithful, religious people who after they died, heard the voice of the Lord Jesus Christ somberly say to them, “I never knew YOU!” Wow. Consider that more than 75% of their entire lives was spent either on a church pew or even behind a pulpit. It blows my mind. I can’t even speak any further on it. Yet, these very words are recorded in the book of Matthew as said to people who have claimed to cast out devils in His name. How were they able to do that if He never knew them? Well, they didn’t. Demons merely used games and tricks to deceive people into believing that demons were cast out from people, when they were not. Demons are skilled at playing possum.
Bringing this right down home into your own personal backyard, where do YOU stand in the midst of a spiritual conspiracy theory that is mind boggling, to say the least?
The first thing you must do is to “examine your faith.” Jesus advised the church at Laodicea to “buy gold from Him that has been tried in the fire. ” In other words, examine the root of the tree and its fruit and simply go back to the day that you believe you got saved and thoroughly scrutinize it from top to bottom. In other words, shake that tree and see if your salvation can withstand the shaking.
This is a hard thing that I enter into on the first counseling session with each of my clients. What I have found is that there are some developmental stages most go through: :denial, defensiveness, anger at me but mostly at God, and worst of all, fear of going to hell.
My dilemma is that I can’t spoon feed them. I try to be as gentle and as supportive as I can be but I can’t hide the truth. Never sure whether or not a client is going to continue with me, when it is obvious to me that they are not saved, I am compelled to warn them for their sakes. If they are among the elect, He will quicken my words to them at the appointed time for them to “be shaken.”
At least if I never hear from them again, I have planted a seed that they can’t throw away very lightly. Jesus said that you can’t put new wine into old wine skins or else the wine skins would break. I can’t confront demons in a person if that person is defenseless. You see, the weapons of their warfare are carnal and therefore will not work against the enemy because they are not saved. To avoid this most crucial “shaking,” would be like trying to mend an old garment with a new piece of cloth. It will rip and be torn.
So, I waste no time starting that fire that will bring about the shaking. My ears have become accustomed to familiar cries of complaint, like— “I gave up the sin of fornication, packed my bags and stopped living in sin, I went to church regularly, and so on and so forth.” They come back at me with yet another defense, like “Well, I had a distinct change in lifestyle and personality. All things became new. So why is it that I am still not a new creature?”
Surely, its complicated because Satan has put his hand on the doctrine of salvation and as would be expected, he has brought about much confusion and religiosity. However, salvation is very simple. It is completely in God’s hands.
The biggest mistake is how people relate to Jesus. Most don’t realize that they have by-passed Him and gone directly to the Father. Other’s ignore Him yet seek the Holy Ghost. Both ways open the door wide to religious devils. Jesus Christ is the only way to salvation. Demons know that better than anybody!
With those who believe that they repented of sin, I find that they really have no understanding of the cross. They simply looked through their portfolio of sins, picked one, convicted themselves of it and said “I’m saved.” Like the Galatians, those who created their own born again experience depended upon their own works. Then like the Colossians, others have been drawn away from Christ through philosophy and the traditions of men.
To both the Galatians and the Colossians, Paul had the same message—the cross of Calvary.
Your understanding of the cross will determine whether or not He says “I never knew You!”
Here is a clue. If you are not separated from the world not only in your deeds but in your mind, if you still seek the approval and the acceptance of the world and the church world, then you do not understand the cross. You may have simply convicted yourself of sin and brought about your own change and lifestyle, yet gladly giving the credit to the Holy Ghost when “it was really ALL your own doing.”
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Sherry Shriner is quite popular on the web. In fact, she was a big help to me while I was conducting my research for the book
“The Fake Jesus: Fallen Angels Among Us.” I found her knowledge of the ascended masters to be quite helpful. However, her writings on the Apostle Paul are blasphemous, considering that Paul wrote 1/3 of the New Testament. I won’t go into Sherry’s contentions about this phenomenal apostle because I refuse to spread her point of view. Instead, as a former atheist who had never been to church and no one had ever witnessed to me, Paul has been crucial to my spiritual understanding of what happened to me that strange but marvelous day when I became born again. For when I had my own Damascus Road experience with the Lord Jesus Christ, I knew of no one else who had ever had one.
Even though I got born again before I ever heard of the Apostle PAUL, I would not have understood why on March 29, 1977, I felt “so different.” The newness. The cleanness. The past seemed so far away. No shame or guilt for ANYTHING and I had been quite the sinner in my first 33 years of life. Why on this strange day in March did I feel like “I had JUST been born?” A few minutes after I was “born again,” I opened my brand new bible and it turned to John 3, the words of the Lord, “you must be born again, that which is flesh is flesh and that which is spirit is spirit.” After I read this, then the Holy Spirit spoke and said “Pam, you have just given birth to your new spirit in Christ Jesus. Go run a bathtub full of water, and baptize yourself in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost!”
Wow! Yahoo! I never felt so great in my life!!!
No, Paul did NOT cause me to be saved. No one did but God Himself.
I did not go to church for two years. All I had was the Apostle Paul and the 4 gospels. As a babe in Christ, home alone in my apartment, Paul caused me to understand my faith by confirming to me how and why God saved me. Too many people read Paul’s letters in order to be saved. In other words, they desire to be saved to escape hell, and so they mechanically DO what Paul wrote about. They think that if I SAY a confession, I will be saved and I will go to heaven because Paul wrote, “Confess the Lord with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus was raised from dead, you are saved. That settles it. I accept Jesus. I choose to be saved. I seal it with saying the sinner’s prayer. I’ll stamp it by going forward to the altar at the invitation.
You see, when I read Paul’s words, I said “Ah, that is what happened to me.” I did not repeat or confess words. When the Holy Ghost saved me, I felt like a coin was dropped into me, like I was a soda machine. But Lo and behold, what came out of the machine was not soda, but faith in the resurrection of a dead man that I not only did not believe in, but I claimed that Jesus Christ never even existed, but that He was merely a white man’s myth!!!!” I said nothing from my mouth but “Jesus.” “I am crying for what we did to Jesus!” That was it. I said nothing about the resurrection. I just knew that I knew that I knew that Jesus was dead, got up in His body and walked out of His own tomb, three days later. My belief on the resurrection was the rock or stone that dropped into me and never left in 34 years, not one time! No doubt Jesus is alive in His body not one time in 34 years!!!!
So when Paul wrote that we are saved by grace through faith, I understood the first time I read it because it had happened to me two years before reading Paul’s words to the Ephesians. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that my salvation was a gift from God because I never even sought the gift. On top of that, I was the last person that anyone who knew me would have believed what happened to me. So I could nod my head in agreement with Paul because I knew that my salvation had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.
However, what Paul taught me that I did not already know as a babe in Christ, is that the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the son of God. Without Paul, I would not have known or even understood that I can’t please God with my flesh. Paul has been for me one of the best biblical examples of a spiritually fruitful child of God. Once filled with pride over his scholarly achievements, his heritage and his cultural and religious attainments, Paul taught me how to die and yet live at the same time. He taught me how to stand against the enemy, how to press on to victory, how to walk in the spirit and not fulfill my lust of my flesh. He taught me how to press on to the mark of my high calling in the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
No, Paul did not cause me to be saved. What he did was train up a babe in Christ to become a minister. Once I entered ministry, I had a number of elders and a few bishops that I was mandated to submit to. However, none of them taught me a thing about what it take to be a minister. It was Paul who did that. I thank Paul for that.
In fact, I love Paul the Apostle.
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ARE YOU LOT’S WIFE?
I have been doing the work of deliverance for 28 years and so I learned that I must “plead the blood.” Even so, I know full well that there were times when I did not fully understand the power of the blood, yet my faith was fully grounded in the power of the Name of Jesus and I have had a modicum of success with casting out demons. However, the power of His name comes from the power of the cross, the blood and the resurrection.
In order for a deliverance to occur and be long lasting, it is important that both the worker and the captive realize that being crucified to the world is essential to a complete victory over the enemy. Yet in order to fully understand how to be crucified to the world, the terms need to be defined.
First of all, the world is not the earth. The world is an invisible group of “systems” that the enemy of our souls is still the god of. So in simple terms, if Jesus Christ of Nazareth is not Lord over a particular system, that system is a part of THE WORLD. Put another way, if Christ is not the head of it, it is “the world.” That includes people, places and things. For example, if Christ is not the head of your family, then your family is “THE WORLD.” If Christ is not the head of your school, then your school is “THE WORLD.” If Christ is not the head of your career, your sport, whatever, it is THE WORLD. If Christ is not the head of your church, SHE IS THE WORLD!
Actually, ALL religious systems are a part of THE WORLD, if Jesus Christ of Nazareth is not the head of them. Christianity and the organized church are a significant part of the religious WORLD. If you are born again, you must be crucified with Christ to the religious world. Since the religious world includes the organized church system, you must be crucified to Her. If you love the organized church system, then you are a lover of the world.
There are other blogs where I explain why the organized church is a part of the religious world and must be rejected. Just know that what I write herein is premised on the fact that I believe it was the Lord who spoke to me in 2007 and said that “He has already judged the organized church and that the Holy Ghost has been removed.” So as I am dead to the world, I am also dead to the organized church and her practices. I don’t argue that point with anyone. I simply walk by faith and not by sight. The organized church is quite “visible” yet She is dead to me and I have buried Her.
According the word of God, the cross of Jesus is the great separator between the Lord and every aspect of the world. Consider Lot’s wife. When God was destroying Sodom–the visible world—He warned those He was about to deliver “not to look back.” Looking back was a sign of a love for Sodom and the things of the sodomite world. Today, some seek deliverance yet like Lot’s wife, the cross has not separated them from the longing that still remains in their hearts for the world.
Two years ago for my 65th birthday, I planned to celebrate by attending a gospel fest held in a Pentecostal church during the holiday season. I thought to myself, “What could be the harm? After all, there would be no preaching, but only worship through song. So I ordered 4 tickets.
Two days later, I heard in the spirit very clearly, “ARE YOU LOT’S WIFE?”
Four little words! Believe, me folk! My imagination was live! lol No more needed to be said. I cancelled the tickets with a quickness! Think of it!!! I was planning to return to the enemy’s territory, “to worship God!” The bottomline is that I was “looking back”, possibly TO GO BACK! Who knows but God. A very bad move AFTER God had delivered me out of the oppression of the enemy that I had withstood for 25 years!!!. This is what I believe. If I had attended that service, my days of celebrating birthdays would have come to an abrupt end. The fear of the Lord came on me, a fear that is the beginning of wisdom!
Some have left the world, even the church world, but like Lot’s wife, the cross has not separated them from the longing that remains in their hearts for the world. So I warn everyone who has an ear to hear and an eye to see. There is a religious world in our times which is far more dangerous tha other systems that are obviously evil and a part of Satan’s domain. This religious world consists of professing Christians who deny the cross and the resurrection of Jesus Christ in more ways than one.
You see the cross symbolizes deliverance from this present evil age (Gal 1:4),—from the powers of darkness (Col 1:13)—from the devils and demons who rule the world under their leader, Satan–(Eph 6:12) and—-on the resurrection side of the cross—WE ARE TRANSLATED INTO THE KINDOM OF THE SON OF GOD! When we plead the blood, we are telling the enemy that we are dead to his world, that he no longer has authority over us, that we walk in that same power that raised Jesus from the dead.
Yet–if we look back—Satan treats us as if we were “Lot’s wife.” The cross and the resurrection loses its victory in our lives. If the world STILL has the power to attract us or to influence our spiritual walk, then we are not crucified. If we are not crucified, then we are open and vulnerable to demonic attacks and the fate of Lot’s wife can be OUR fate.
We arrive on the resurrection side of the cross only AFTER we have been crucified to the world. No crucifixion? No power to defeat the enemy. For we overcome Satan by the blood of the Lamb! Pleading the blood is of no consequence to demons if the one who stands as a deliverer of captives is not crucified to the world.
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