original post written by Gloria115
“However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”
Luke 18:8

There are some statements & questions Jesus has said or asked that I have struggled with for years. I want to focus on this question during this Easter weekend as millions of Christians around the world celebrate the death, burial & Resurrection of Jesus Christ.
I grew up in the catholic church where I was initially introduced to Jesus. He was a partially naked man wearing a crown of thorns on his head, he seemed dead as he hang lifeless on the cross.
Catholic recitals & traditional prayers gave me more information on this Jesus. He was a redeemer & the one you ask forgiveness from because he died to cleanse us from our sins. But there was a catch, he could only forgive us through the help of Mary, the Father or the angels. Some samples of the prayers went like this
I know my sins have wounded Thy Tender Heart,
O My Savior, let me be freed from the bonds of evil through
the most bitter Passion of My Redeemer. Amen.
…O my God, in union with the Immaculate Heart of Mary
[kiss your Scapular)I offer Thee the Precious
Blood of Jesus from all the altars throughout the world…
O JESUS, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I offer You my prayers,
O MOST MERCIFUL JESUS, lover of souls,
I beseech Thee, by the agony of Thy most Sacred Heart,
and by the sorrows of Thine Immaculate Mother,
wash clean in the Thy Blood the sinners of the whole world
who are to die this day
The Jesus I learnt about wasn’t sovereign & above influence, he was a God who got his feelings hurt if I sinned, he needed help to redeem people and had to work in collaboration with almost everyone to just redeem one individual.
I had to perform a lot of confessions as well, as God was almost angry all the time, I had to engage in church practices to soothe him & continually recite prayers to Mary to calm him down. In the process I got stressed and developed OCD tendencies such as repeating menial tasks.
In my teen years, I moved to the Protestant church and met a different Jesus, this one loved more and was easier to get along with. After inviting him into my heart and feeling sensations of love moving in my chest, I felt loved for the first time. I’ve since learnt that love is not a feeling, its in action but that’s another topic.
Feeling that I had finally met the real Jesus, I settled in church and became active in prayer meetings, choir practice, intercessors group etc. I came to find out almost immediately that this Jesus was worse than the one in the catholic church. The demonic attacks started from inappropriate sexual thoughts about Jesus. Hindsight is 20/20 because as I look back, those thoughts distressed me greatly, I never enjoyed them so how could they have come from me? Demons were projecting these thoughts into my mind & they had the right to my mind since I said the sinners prayers and let them in.
I analyze this Jesus I was worshiping and things don’t add up:-