Thirty eight years of my life have been filled with signs to “wonder” about, several of them occurring in dreams. Before I was saved, I was demonized by a spirit of divination. I used to dream as many as 10 dreams a night, remembering MOST of them. Several dreams contained predictions that actually came to pass. When I went into ministry in 1981, I had a loose-leaf “dream book” where I had journaled about 3,000 dreams. I’ll never forget the day that the Lord asked me to throw out the dream journal because “I was fit to be tied!”. I complained, “Lord, I have been maintaining this journal for years because I plan to write a book about dreams.” He responded: “Pam, you have some dreams that I sent to you in your journal, but most of your dreams are from the devil. Throw it away. I’ll give you other books to write.” I reluctantly put the dream book in an outside garbage and went back 3 times to retrieve it, asking myself “was that REALLY God?” Finally, I let the garbage truck take it. Thank God, I finally obeyed.
In 1985, I had a supernatural sign—a dream where a 7 foot,bald-headed, muscular being loudly and boldly declared, “I am an angel sent from God to show you your future ministry.”This “angel” showed me a huge residential Christian rehabilitation center for ex-offenders and recovering addicts. In the center of it was a huge chapel. The rehab center was so large that I couldn’t figure out if it was one piece of land with several cottages and buildings on its grounds, or if the blueprint consisted of several individual sites around the country.Since my secular background includes writing proposals and obtaining large government grants in human services, I asked, ” Do I write a grant?” The “angel” bellowed loudly,”NOOOO!!!! This is God’s project and He shall fund it.”
Very religious, pious sounding, right? Well, it took me 20 years to find out that this being was a demon sent by the fake Jesus to derail me and “set me up.”. The religious demon even poured into me the desire and the zeal to do this kind of work—a desire that I took for granted came from God. As one example out of many, I remember having a supernatural experience in the parking lot of a prison, with travail and groanings that knocked me to the ground. Periodically over the years, I spent hours on my face, weeping and travailing for the salvation of prisoners. I actually preached and taught in prison every week for 8 years. Nevertheless, once the spotlight of truth hit me in the face, –that I was NOT called by God to a prison/substance abuse ministry,—- the wisdom received was not at all painful. I just said to myself “oh well.. I’m in the Lord’s hands. He will guide my next steps.”
Instantly I understood how and why a religious demon had been successful at deceiving me on this and other significant issues for so long. Simply put, the Lord knew that the deception would be good for me since “I had been in training for 30 years.” The truth is that the best way to learn Satan’s strategies is to be deceived,and then to watch the Holy Ghost unveil and expose the deception. It was necessary for me to go down the trail of deception myself, so that I could yell back to those behind me, ” Hey, yall, go back!!! You don’t need to follow this path, I’ve seen what is ahead so turn around and start again.”
I don’t blame the people the enemy sent into my life to derail me. They had no idea what was going on. They were just pawns in a demonic chess game invisibly and secretly played out with my ministerial life as the chessboard. So I take full responsibility for being duped by the fake Jesus because clearly, the Lord never assigned me to work in a substance abuse prison ministry. I DID NOT TRY THE SPIRITS TO SEE IF THEY WERE OF GOD. Due to my impatience to “get things rolling” in what I believed to be the Lord’s work, I actually put myself into the devil’s hands because it suited my own purposes to believe a lie. I STRONGLY DESIRED THE WORK TO BEGIN,NOT REALIZING THAT I WAS BEING REFINED AND CLEANSED THROUGH WHAT I ENDURED AND SUFFERED.
One day I looked up and the zeal for prison ministry and substance abuse counseling was completely gone from my spirit. Vanished. With the zeal gone, I immediately withdrew from prison ministry. Shortly thereafter, my spiritual eyes were opened to the whole truth. I had been hooked by an intricate, demonic setup. I now know the truth, and the truth has set me free to complete what God has REALLY chosen me to do. So what is my divine assignment? My assignment is to train ministers for the return of the Lord.
So if you have been given a specific blueprint about your spiritual journey in the Lord–if you have been shown signs of who you will marry and such, if your plan has lots of details with confirming signs, you’d better stop, look, listen and STAND STILL.
Its the devil!
My testimony is primarily told in “Come Out of Her God’s People: Don’t Receive Her Plagues.”
We do not have much time left to prepare for what is about to unfold!
If you have left the organized church, then perhaps I am called to train or mentor you. I can be reached at 518-477-5759 Ask for Pastor Pam
- What Does Your Dream Mean? (pamsheppardpublishing.com)