A FORMER PASTOR WARNS: LEAVE THE CHURCH! Part 3
By Pam Sheppard
I started out for 33 years of life an atheist. In 33 years, I attended church just ONE day in my life. Once I had a ‘Damascus Road” type of experience with the Lord, I was sold out for Him. And it was two years—1979–before I attended any church. I went because I had 3 consecutive dreams of a local pastor, and all 3 dreams urged me to find this man, the late Rev. Lester. (not his real name.) Not once in more than 25 years did I ever consider that it was NOT God who sent me those dreams. I didn’t find out until AFTER I had finished my 4th book, “the Fake Jesus:Fallen Angels Among Us.” How did I find out? The Lord spoke to me and quietly said, “I did not send you those 3 dreams that sent you to that church.” Simple.
Why did He wait so long to tell me this? Well, I never asked Him. I kinda “knew” without asking. I needed to know the depth of perversion and depravity the organized church system actually is “from inside.” You might say, “I was a spy.” I was never really a part of the system because the demons in it recognized that I was a spy before I actually knew it myself. The Lord allowed a messenger of Satan to give me 3 dreams and several confirming signs that I was supposed to be there. I was a church person for 25 years, in ministry about two years after I first arrived. I was in a denomination where several churches in a region are “connected.” So I got to know about 100 ministers, about 10 percent of them as close regional associates.
Well, I knew it was depraved from the beginning. My first pastor was a closet homosexual who also practiced a Caribbean form of witchcraft called “obeah.” He was one of the first to die of AIDS in the early 80’s. Most of the ministerial elders that I had to submit my ministry to were depraved. Thieves, drug abusers, fornicators, homosexuals, child abusers, you name it, undercover and sometimes openly, they did it.
I stayed as long as I did because the religious demon assigned to me played a convincing game to prove that God had me in the system to cause the system to repent. So I was on my knees, sobbing, wailing and travailing for 25 years. When things only got worst, commonsense should have told me, “Hey Pam, Don’t you “get it?” God is not answering your prayers in this matter. Why can’t you ‘figure it out?’ If God has not answered your prayers for repentance for 25 years, perhaps it is because “the time of repentance is over. It just ain’t goin to happen, Gurl!!! Get up off your knees!”
I was pretty comfortable in the denomination in 2003. I had started my own church and I kept my self separated from the religious politics, and the Bishop did not particularly care WHAT I was doing. He treated me like I didn’t exist, and that worked well for me. Then one day, the Lord spoke to me in a dream. He showed me that “it was time to go.” He said “but let them PUT you out.” Since I was not in any kind of trouble with the upper echelon, it seemed implausible that they would put me out. Well 9 months from the dream, my name was removed from the denominations rolls.
Once out, I devoted myself to my online ministry which had begun in 2002 and to the church that I had founded in 1996. From 2004-2007, I waited for the Lord to send me to a different denomination, with my eyes on Full Gospel, non denominational groups. It didn’t happen. Then in 2007, the Holy Ghost spoke again. He compared the organized church to an inner city condemned building. In short, He said “I’ve judged it already and I am no longer there.”
I said to myself “this COULD be the devil. It was too incredulous for me to believe that the Holy Ghost was not in the church. I was in a state of shock. So I tried the spirits through the study of church history for one year. After that year, I knew I had heard from the Holy Ghost. He is NOT there.
Since God is not there, no point in ME being there either!
In my book below, I warn ministers and ministers-to-be of the dangers of operating in ministry within the institutionalized, organized church.
by Wenona Russ
‘The Makings of a False Prophet’ is a book that looks at the motives for wanting to be in ministry as well as serving as a tool one in ministry can use to gauge where they are in the HEARTS as it pertains to ministry. Many a TRUE prophet turned false as a result of not taking heed to the very foundational and practical things the author shares in her 50-pg book. THIS is the stuff they WON’T tell you in Bible College or the School of the Prophets and/or Apostles! ’The Makings of a False Prophet digs deep into the heart and soul to determine the authenticity of a genuine call from the Lord, and how to keep that authenticity pure and undefiled. You will be blessed by this book if you are truly ready to examine yourself and see not only if you are in the faith, but if you are really called. It is an eye-opening and realistic view at what ministry is-and what it is NOT.