Folks, as I sit here writing this article, I can recollect how eight years ago I began to live a double life. I would go to church on Sunday, attend prayer meetings during the week and yet I was living a double life. I honestly thought that no one would ever get hurt by my deceitful actions. Boy was I ever wrong.
It all started very subtly. Isn’t this how Satan began his attack on human beings from the very beginning?
I would get online searching groups where I thought I could deliver the good news of Jesus Christ and the Love of God. In the beginning, things seemed like they were moving according to my desires. I would eventually run across individuals whose main objective was solely sexual in nature. I thought I had everything under control.
BOY WAS I DECEIVED!
Folks, in all honesty it was like jumping from A to Z, with no other letters in between. I found myself emerged in a world of internet sex. When I think back I can clearly see how “loneliness” played an important role in my emergence of this totally satanic world.
Another thing I found interesting was the numerous “christians” (including myself) that were also playing sexual fantasies within the world wide web. I came across Pastors, Evangelists, and many many praise and worship leaders (from various denominations). Men and women all on the same path to destruction.
Can you believe that “loneliness” can cause a person to dive “blindly” into un-chartered waters? I can.
The man I thought was sent from God was in fact sent from Satan to attempt my destruction. He was a very angry man, filled with demons. These demons used my husband to try to destroy me spiritually and physically.
About a year into my marriage I found out that my husband was “schizophrenic” and Hepatitis C positive.
I spent five years traveling to and from various psychiatric hospitals. My husband would suffer from severe manic episodes. He also attempted suicide six times during our marriage. Some of these attempts were so severe that I thought he would never pull through. Time and time again he would pull through.
I lost many friends during these difficult years. Friends that had nothing nice to say to me and felt “judging me” was the only way to go. To think about it, they were never my friends to begin with.
I have learned much in the six years of being married to my husband. Five of these six years I spent many nights crying out to God, then suddenly, one day
MY HUSBAND WALKED AWAY…………………….
I can speak in complete and total honesty that “nothing is impossible for God”. He can do for you what he has done for me. Stay tuned for part two of this article. I’ll be back to talk to you about my deliverance. In the meantime, if you struggle with loneliness and have turned your sights to the internet and are involved with web porn, call Sheppard’s Counseling Center. Pam Sheppard, and her team of supervised deliverance minister are here to help. You can be delivered from sexual addictions. You can be delivered from all demonic bondage. Your total freedom in Christ is our main concern.